my life

VOTE FOR ME TODAY!

2008-06-22T00:12:00.000-07:00

it’s simple! click on the shoe, and vote “Love it!” :D :D

If you vote once, it will be much appreciated.
If you vote once every day, i’ll share the loot with you :D D :p

so, start voting now!

re-direct

2007-08-30T01:07:00.000-07:00

don't be lazy and re-direct yourself to my new site

http://nowyoucanstalkme.wordpress.com/
click what click? no link la! i said don't be lazy right?

hello my darlings!

2007-08-27T23:52:00.000-07:00

It've been quite a while haven't it? Spank my lazy ass for not blogging, please.

Anyway, it's been 24 business days and my dvd have not freaking arrive! Someone tell me that i've been conned though i don't quite believe that i am. I mean the seller has 7141 feedbacks over a year of which 99.1% is positive. I mean, who the hell would be so free to constantly create new accounts and spam himself with positive feedbacks just to con a few bucks out of someone else. That's incredibly crazy and evil. Could be postage that's lagging. Aye.. there's such a long story behind the dvd (on how i was told it is out of stock locally but eventually managed to get my hands on it from one of the shops here) and i'm least excited over the damn dvd anymore. Yes, the worst things always have to happen on me. Praise the lord.

I realised i've been quite problematic recently. First it was my constant need to quench my thirst which led me to think that i've kidney problem, and now the back of my knee (where the red arrows point) hurts like f-k whenever i stand up from either squatting or sitting for long hours. It's been like this for weeks.

Oh i just realise i'm very hum ji. Okay i didn't just realise that today. I took vitamin C pill today because my head feels heavy for the entire day and my body feels like it's burning, internally that is. Wa lao. I feel like a sissy.

Ahh! And i always have problem focusing my vision. See! I'm such a problematic kid. ahaha.

Sat down and watched House of Harmony with my dad, mom and younger sister. As usual someone would give a comment then there'll be a small harmless argument. That totally reminded me why i hate sitting down and do things together as a family. Maybe i'm just not a people person. I never really liked to eat together as a family, to watch television together, and many other things that a a family normally do. I prefer being alone, in solitude.

I don't entirely hate doing things with my family. I like the times when my siblings and i kill those big flying ants that normally appear after a heavy rain. I like the way we'd scream in horror when they crawl on us. I like the way we'd sing "if there's a bug in the neighborhood, who would you call? Pest busters!!" (sing to the tune of ghost busters) I like the way we smirk when we kill one it and the disgusted face we carry on our faces while looking at the aftermath.

lijuan's econs lecturer

2007-08-21T23:21:00.000-07:00

i like the way he pronounces goods as goose, it makes him hot and sexy. i'm just kidding.

itch

2007-08-20T17:38:00.000-07:00

it sucks when my ear is very itchy and i can't scratch it. damn it.

i think i'm in love

2007-08-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

why bother?

2007-08-15T00:29:00.000-07:00

this strong facade i'm tired of
i resign
loosen your grip
leave me alone
let me fall
save your energy and go elsewhere
that hand of yours, i'm not taking it

guitar

2007-08-14T23:08:00.000-07:00

i can't play the guitar properly with my fat fingers. laugh at me. i hate it when people make playing guitar look so easy. roar!

service in singapore. how fucked up can it get?

2007-08-13T23:54:00.000-07:00

Having gone through countless preachings on how we should uphold the service standards, it's totally nauseating whenever i come across a fucked up service crew. Just today alone i have came across 2 fucked up service staff which, of course, made my blood boil.

The first bad service encounter i had was at Music Junction. The moment i walked into the shop, all i could hear is the staff's thunderous chatter and laughter which totally drowned the on going background music. I mean, there's like a few other customers in the shop and the staff were totally oblivious. HELLO?! If you're not gonna attend to us at least kindly not laugh like a hyena. It's disturbing. Very disturbing in fact. Alright, so picked the VCD and headed for the counter. I thought it was common sense for a staff to stop whatever they are doing at any point of time and attend to a customer. But apparently this particularly stupid staff i met seemed to not have any common sense. She just continued sweeping the darn floor like she'd get an award for being spick and span. And when she finally decided to attend to us, oh-my-god, her attitude was totally intolerable. Her face is bad enough for me to withstand and she had to give me that screwed up attitude, and the dumb ass sarcasm when she found out it was the first time my friend and i was renting a video. Bitch. I bet nobody wants to fuck her. I'd definitely love to see her face when someone says "what? you mean you never had sex?" to her.

The second bad encounter took placed at MOS burger. I'm lazy to explain myself. Ask if you want to know.

eh

2007-08-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

like that lor..

hair is strange

2007-08-09T02:15:00.000-07:00

ok. i don't know why the title. never mind.

i was trying out different ways to make my hair, and i got fed up so i just messed up my hair and walked away. (shut up, i refuse to admit i've no skill) anyway, i didn't know my hair would end up looking like that till my sister told me. i guess sometimes it's useless to try too hard! roarrr..

oh, i think my fringe and sides needs to get longer, and the back needs to get shorter.

07.08.07

2007-08-08T15:47:00.000-07:00

just one picture first. one of my favourites :)

talking to gabriel

2007-08-07T15:18:00.000-07:00

talking to gabriel is probably one of the nicest things to do. all his stupid ideas, the way he sees things, the way he laughs, the stupid things he says to annoy me, oh oh... the best part, when he sings over the phone and he doesn't know i'm listening. wahahahha! dude, i love you!

my reservations about heaven

2007-08-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i can't help wondering why everyone wants to go to heaven. This entire make believe thing too beautifully painted. Just wondering if the real deal lives up to it's name. At least i hope the part where they say heaven is a place void of sorrow is true, cause i don't know what it would be like to know that's where you'll choose her over me.

*note: this post is super random.

random

2007-08-03T23:40:00.000-07:00

The other day on the bus i came to realise that when you take your mind of everything and focus on breathing, it (the heart) hurts more because you know the pain is real.

to hell with don's chicken pie and whoever don is

2007-08-03T00:55:00.000-07:00

Do you guys still get calls from anonymous people wanting to buy don's chicken pie from you? Don't laugh, i'm being serious here. I still get them, loads of them. Seriously, i searched the entire technorati, blogspot, google for my personal selling website and i can't fucking find it. How in the fucking hell did these people manage to dig it (whatever it is.. my website, my contact etc.) out from? These guys are fucking potential stalkers!

Man.. if these people called at the RIGHT time (when i'm still doing my personal selling module) i'd be fucking happy to entertain all their calls. All of them. Even if it's someone calling at 3.15am to buy 1/8 of a don's chicken pie for his/her pregnant hamster whose having sudden midnight craving for it. I swear to God i'd answer his/her call with a smile.

Coming to think about it, I'd have probably made like what? $20349.39 sales from these people?! I'd get fucking rich selling chicken pie! -worships chicken pie- OK, not that we get any commission out of it anyway. Just my imagination. Everyone of us is just a money generator for the school. Seriously, why do they have to squeeze money out of us like that? Oh. I almost forgot it ain't cheap to run porn productions and have them mass distributed through the student's mail. Really! The cost of managing the database alone... I can totally understand.

Right, back from digression. Right now i totally DO NOT appreciate these 'stalkers' calling me when i'm still in bed, or when i'm really having a bad day and they decide to further ruin it. And there's this particular lady i have to mention. Not that i'm picking on you bitch, but you call every other day to check if i decided to start selling chicken pie again. WTF?! Listen, I DO NOT SELL CHICKEN PIE! i repeat, I DO NOT AND WILL NOT EVER EVER SELL CHICKEN PIE ESPECIALLY DON'S CHICKEN PIE. And NO. NO DICK'S CHICKEN PIE EITHER.

Now get that into your fucking head. Pfttt.

wa lao. it's hazardous can!

2007-08-02T12:41:00.000-07:00

my parents removed the railings at home to move some things.
it's scary. =/
me + my imagination = scarier.
i hyperventilate whenever i walk pass the hallway.

urgh. i suck. at memory.

2007-08-02T12:17:00.000-07:00

ok, i know i've asked some people for the 21809493th time already. and i'm pai seh to bother people with my stupid question via sms again. so i shall shamelessly ask it here.

i really need to know....

what is the exact date of our IPP??

-embarrassed look- i'm sorry your friend here has poor memory.

would some kind soul please tag on my board or sms me the date? thanks in advance :)

wolf clinging on head

2007-08-02T11:59:00.000-07:00

this is how i think it would look like

wolfy

2007-08-02T02:12:00.000-07:00

wolfy wolfy wolfy wolfy wolfy wolfy wolfy
i'm hungry

thoughts.

2007-08-01T00:18:00.000-07:00

i paused and gave it a thought.
was i right?
or have i ever been right?
i never found the answer.
then i asked.
why should i feel the way i feel, when i could be better off feeling something else?
i found it; the answer.
i told myself.
care less. it'll do you good.

i realised i've unconsciously fallen into what many have fell for.
it's time to take a step back before i find myself hating myself.

the beautiful moon and my pet wolf

2007-07-30T23:22:00.000-07:00

if you've noticed, the moon has been round for the past few days. pretty pretty. and finally my pet wolf howled today ((:

i laughed so hard i had tummyache

2007-07-27T13:51:00.000-07:00

wend, make sure you watch it.

random

2007-07-27T01:48:00.000-07:00

sometimes i laugh at myself.

world's worst sister

2007-07-22T23:26:00.000-07:00

i actually forgot that today's my brother birthday and i'm always out to cheat my sister's m&ms.

singlish

2007-07-20T02:22:00.000-07:00

the best thing about youtube isn't necessarily the video, but the comments. some of them are really... priceless!

here's one: (this guy's rebuking some other guy who commented on how sucky singaporeans are at speaking english)

"why are you making fun of their accent? try speaking their language its so much more complicated then english"

got this off corrine's blog

2007-07-20T01:40:00.000-07:00

" A week ago I saw this ad on the papers, appealing for girls to sign up as escorts. Was thinking wow, that’s a really daring ad and went online to prod some more. Discovered this forum created by local men - just to chat about the sex trade. I don’t understand half the acronyms inside, but I do know that they list places to go and post ratings after they’re done.

A few admits they are attached.

They even warn each other about potential ‘clingy’ girls, so the others can avoid them. The thing that hit me most is that most of them treat it as purely professional. As normal as conducting any other kind of business. I pay, you service me, the end. Some even say things like “She is a very nice, just came to earn money, treat her properly ok”

I wonder if they treat their wives as good.

They aren’t shy about what they do at all, posting very explicit details and events. At the end giving ratings on body, after-service, hygiene, whatever. Its like a whole network of sex addicts feeding on each other’s dirty deeds.

Oh yeah not to mention those sleazy ktv parlours.

I think I might become so disgusted with all men that I turn lesbian. "

nothing else can be more disgusting

SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

2007-07-19T02:01:00.000-07:00

if anyone were to ask how annoyed i am now, the answer is VERY. (and i'll most likely slap the person's face)

I LOST THE RUBBER PART OF MY EARRING, YET AGAIN!! why the fuck... i was just about to be convinced by myself that i really like my new replacement earring, and now this. excuse me, tell me who in the fuck will lose their earrings(note, it's earrings with a 's' at the back), or part of it, in less than a month. ME! roarrr. seriously, i either:

1) keep losing the things i really like
2) think that i have the things i really like, which may not be the case
3) can't get the things i really like

roarrr. it's always one of those above mentioned cases. sometimes all 3. that's how fucked up i can get.

conversation

2007-07-18T02:31:00.000-07:00

scolionophobic says : you're the type who old people are warned of on crime watch

scolionophobic says : tell me. do you sell miracle-all-ailment-healing black stones?

`mccanny says : only 150bucks each!

scolionophobic says : walau. so cheap. spoil market. no wonder my 300 dollars (on offer) stones dont sell

`mccanny says : no wonder someone grabbed 20 stones from me the other day claiming mine was dirt cheap. even questioned the authenticity of it.

fuck fairness

2007-07-18T00:53:00.000-07:00

fairness is overrated. you know it best when you have another male sibling at home.
sigh. i guess maybe only shiying would understand.

customer service

2007-07-17T19:04:00.000-07:00

same company, different branch, different customer service. bahh!

branch 1
me: hi, can i check if you have ____ for sale?
CSO: sure, give me a minute
(checks system before getting back to me)

branch 2
me: hi, can i check if you have ____ for sale?
CSO: don't have.

Wa lao. she just immediately say don't have. HELLO?! i don't believe you know exactly all the things your shop carry la. fucker.

ok, i'm just annoyed by some people who can't make the simple effort to check their system. is it that hard? =/

shoutout

2007-07-17T13:11:00.000-07:00

Gab, you're so dead. so dead.

you and your imagination

2007-07-16T16:58:00.000-07:00

i don't know why i always make people think too much for their own good. i talk in circles, i make people believe in what's not and vice versa. hate me, please.

conversation

2007-07-16T00:45:00.000-07:00

van said: oh dear i think lotsa ccute looking guys are gays and all the straight man left is like dick. HAHAH yes in the future, a boy and girl holding hands will need to hide themselves while boy-boy girl-girl will be conquering the streets. this is a scary norm.

i'm not sure if there's any pun intended at the dick part though.

well i was saying it'll be a cool change for once and she made me realise the change could be forever (if it ever happens), like how dinosaurs are gone. whatever the case is, a change is needed, any sort will do. history books are getting boring!

rahhh.. i love you (:

jackpot

2007-07-14T00:51:00.000-07:00

it's amazing how much joy you can derive from it. if you don't believe, look! (points at picture below)

ahahahaha

(stupid man urinating at the back)

dressing shiying up for pageant...

...rambo pageant

yay jackpot!

i've the tendency to put things into my mouth. (rahhh..tries to eat paddlepop coloured wolf)

oh shit

2007-07-13T01:49:00.000-07:00

when i start to feel thirsty i cannot help but to think that i may have kidney failure like what shiying said.

no one hates posts with pictures in it, no one.

2007-07-12T01:45:00.000-07:00

it takes 5 minutes to put them together, 15 minutes to get the concept. i sense my creativity cells died off quite a bit.

alright, i know i owe you readers a lot more pictures. i've been lazy. sorry.

mac coupon

2007-07-11T23:05:00.000-07:00

thank you shiying. now i can purchase mcdonalds with coupons! -big grins-

sit and think

2007-07-11T18:33:00.000-07:00

there's this day when you put everything aside, settle down, think things through. the things that were said, the things that were done.

sometimes you laugh and brush it off. sometimes not. you hear yourself scream inside, but you can't talk about it. you don't know where to start. well i guess some things are better left unsaid.

you tell yourself to smile, you smiled. you tell yourself to laugh, you laughed. you tell yourself to love, you loved. you tell yourself everything's gonna be alright, but it didn't turn out so.

what you've got is not what you wanted. what you thought you could have, was not yours and may never be yours. you feel sore. nothing much can be done though, so you go to sleep in hope of waking up to find that everything's alright. the next morning you wake up finding yourself in the same bed, with the same life. nothing's changed. nothing.

love's a sick game

2007-07-11T16:57:00.000-07:00

you've got the person but not the heart
love's a sick game
and i'm playing it no more

cats and cockroaches debate

2007-07-11T13:46:00.000-07:00

me : why u so scared of cats. damn weird.

sy : i scare la

sy : jus like u scare of cockcroach

me : eh dun drag me into the topic can! roarrr!!

sy : kns

me : cat and cockroach different.

sy : its the same la

sy : there's nothing to be afraid of cockcroach wat

sy : so small

sy : cat then scary

sy : the face

sy : eee

me : (cockroaches) dirty and germful. and they never contribute to society

sy : cats can contribute wat

me : cockroach can fly and attack ppl lor

sy : cats also dirty

sy : cats also can

sy : they jump

sy : and attack u

me : cats catch rats. and they not very dirty compared to cockroach. they always groom themselves clean

sy : cockcroach you one leg they gone la

me : cats attack u for a reason. cockcroaches dont

sy : cats u one leg

sy : u die

me : wtf. fine. u win.

tsy goes to school

2007-07-11T13:23:00.000-07:00

someone has found her new target in school. -jealous- don't forget about me ok. please continue to shower love on me. i know you can multi task. hahahaha

plant doctor needed

2007-07-07T21:27:00.000-07:00

i suspect my dwarf sunflowers are diabetic. an army of ants ran out when i water the plants. oh-my-god. any plant doctor to recommend? anyone?

save the camel, save the world!

2007-07-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

i've been drowning myself with water for the past 3 days. i feel thirsty every now and then, even when i'm typing this. that's bad cause it means the camel is dying! oh no!

tsy

2007-07-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

happy 20th birthday!

i'm still 19 :D

why did you do that?

2007-07-04T02:58:00.000-07:00

when you realise that the person who can make it all turn out right is gone

it's too late.

fuck

2007-07-04T00:55:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just don't understand. i simply don't understand.

i can read 95% of it

2007-07-02T17:37:00.000-07:00

原本以为最渺小的决定，却往往造成最大的痛苦。而你花了无数个失眠夜，哭了无尽的眼泪所做的决定，却往往改变不了任何东西。你决定快乐，明天你又因孤独而落泪。你觉定开朗，笑着对着每个人，但你感觉怪怪的，似乎这不是真正的你，而你就决太累了，又何必呢？放弃吧？命运就是会嘲笑人，在你最失落时给你希望，但给了过后就把这希望从你手上拿走，让你发觉你什么都不曾拥有过。

random outburst

2007-07-02T16:27:00.000-07:00

fucking uncooperative weather, i can't sleep perspiring! i don't want the air con, it causes dry skin. arhhhhh !!

hello shiying

2007-07-01T00:14:00.000-07:00

whenever it's time to enjoy yourself you'll fall ill. you don't want to go on dates with me right?! can you please take care of yourself and stop falling sick every now and then. the frequency of you falling sick is higher than a mental case trying to kill himself.

aye, take care!

and i can't believe you actually queued for the donuts! those sweet, ~~poisonously~~ colorful, fattening donuts!! ahhhhhhhhhh. never share. hfmph!

/ps is it really that nice? =/

planning ahead

2007-06-30T23:06:00.000-07:00

i feel like a wuss. i realised that i may not be able do the things i thought i could - to leave and have nothing/no one holding me back. guess it's bout time to say hi reality. (and that kinda suck)

ok. with regards to what i'm going through now. those who knows, know. and i shan't go any further into it.

was in friendster and saw that they have this NEW horoscope link. i tell myself, "who knows i may find an answer there." well, it says:

The Bottom Line

You can't move forward if you are too busy looking around. Choose one path.

In Detail

If you give too much credence to too many viewpoints from too many people, you will end up having your values redefined every single day. This could be good, but it could also be somewhat problematic. You could end up getting whiplash from all the mental back and forth. You can't move forward in life if you are too busy looking left and right all the time. Today, just pick a way to go, and then stick with it.

totally amazing. it's like *snap*, ok, i gotta do something.

dear kite

2007-06-30T00:14:00.000-07:00

when are we going for a ride?

eye feast

2007-06-28T02:14:00.000-07:00

ahahaha UNGLAM!

and i just realised our spectacles look similar. stop being a copycat la van!

just for record, 23.07.07

hi, hello!

2007-06-27T10:11:00.000-07:00

ROAR !! TSY why didn't you send me the pictures? I won't take busy as an answer! hfmph, made me resort to stealing. boo

ah. happy birthday! :D

yay!! i'm still sweet 19 when everyone else is turning 20. and soon i can start saying i'm younger than tsy! muhaha

sleepyhead, rainbow, love

2007-06-26T01:23:00.000-07:00

you love rainbow, don't you sleepyhead?
and i love you more than anyone else would (:

life's regret

2007-06-26T01:11:00.000-07:00

if you've said earlier, things would have been different. but hey, nothing last forever! what i'm trying to say is it's a little too late for regret, move on.

and so i've decided..

2007-06-20T01:17:00.000-07:00

i'm not gonna lose to him, i refuse to. i'm going back to what i used to be, or even better. i'm running too slow. i'm lagging too far. goodbye world. you'll see me again, a better me.

chip and dale

2007-06-19T11:57:00.000-07:00

30.05.07
love love :))

favourite pastime: annoying shiying

2007-06-18T15:36:00.000-07:00

things i love saying to shiying just to annoy her:

sy: i read finish a book within 2 days

me: children's book right
those big font wordings
only 5 pages.. and it took u 2 days to complete
hahaha

sy: kns
look down on me
hate u

me: love u

sy: erks!
haha

aww... my cute friend!

annoying phone calls

2007-06-18T13:15:00.000-07:00

what the fuck is wrong with the people?! stop calling to ask if i have houses/rooms for sale/rent. oh, did i mention the prank calls i've been getting? kids; they shouldn't come with fingers.

abnormal brain cells

2007-06-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

i hate myself for thinking too much. in fact, too much for my own good. at times i can't help but to wonder if my brain cells are abnormally active. well at least i know vanessa is sticking through this with me. and it's nice to have a friend going through it with you, but i'm quite sorry that she has retarded-ly active brain cells though.

and shit! weekends are approaching. kids. sigh.

i can't believe my brother's 22. he's such a kid. not like i'm not one myself, but i mean he gets sooooo overly excited when he starts recollecting the funny scenes in shrek 3. he goes: "oh ya remember the scene when blah blah.. so retarded!" -insert laughter- ok seriously i think the focus here is not whether shrek 3 is a nice movie but the company he had. enough said. and yes, coincidentally we both watched the same movie today. i know what you are thinking. no, we didn't watch it together. if you haven't realised i said coincidentally. shrek 3 was... well, nice.

and if you happen to be thinking that i'm lagging because i only watched shrek 3 today, go fuck yourself. alright i'm not exactly in a very good mood but i won't apologise for that. bye.

classic friendster testimonials

2007-06-14T01:36:00.000-07:00

i thought it'd be cool to compile some of the best testimonials. probably one of the best:

lijuan - "You are my fucking friend,
And I hope you know thats fucking
true.

No matter what the fuck happens,
I will stand the fuck by you.

I will fucking be there for you,
Whenever the fuck you need me.

To lend you a fuckin hand,

To do a fuckin good deed.

So just fuckin call on me,
Whenever the fuck you need
anything.

Fuck I will always be there,
Even to the bitter fuckin end."

ok. maybe cause there's hell lot of expletives there.

and more in random orders:

1. Sya - "my best buddy in sch....we share our secrets...or shud i say onli i share my problems wite her...ahaha...veri trustworty mate i ever come across...bt can say dat shez quite hard 2 get along wite..if she dun lyke ya,u'r doomed man!!" , "i'm allergic 2 bullshit...however,i still miz ur presence"

ha. even best buddy can't stand the way i keep things to myself. and i'm seriously anti-social and full of bullshit. thanks for pointing that out.

2. secondary schoolmate - "ur group ppl n my grp ppl were playing the GUARDIANS thingy, hahhaa~! The both oF uS were Like So FreaKEd Out!"

firstly i want to sincerely apologise for forgetting your great name. i just suck at remembering names. this testimonial made it to the classics cause i thought playing the 'guardian' thing was quite memorable. And freaky.

3. lijuan - "u r lame" , "u r sweet" , "u r cute" , "JIAXIN is my CUTEST friend.. haha"

alright, i think that explains it all. (:

4. daisy - "she had 2 wordz on her forehead:P *lazy bum*"

thank you for pointing that out too.

5. mong - "gosh..u remember almost everything...U MADE ME CRIED!!...juz wanna tell u ..i miss all the things in sec sch.. 2003 is the best yr i ever had. u shuld noe y oso..and u played such impt role tat year!!! maths stinks forever and lit will always rox!yeah baby yeahh~~"

i don't quite know if math still stink to you. chinese still stink though you'd never agree. rock on!

6. wenD - "everytime watch tvmobile's 'just for laugh' together and laugh in the bus like juz come out from mental hospital... " , "being her fren iz great coz although she likes to do this: me:"jiaxin i need ur help" jx:"cannot" me:"go there wif me" jx:"no" me:"try this" jx:"dun wan" "

wa. i miss bus rides with you =(
ok i admit i love irritating people

7. brother - "jiaxin... BITCH.. haha.. she's one gay hell of a woman.. when i'm in pain, 90% of the time it's her fault.. haha.. okok.. she's a real kick-ass sister to have.. cos with her around, the computer's always occupied.. she screws pple's lives up all the time.. look at mine.. i had to see a shrink for all the gay shit she did to me! nooooooooooo! haha.. she's actually nice. nice only to her frens.. she doesn't let her brother have peace.. watever it is, she's still nice.. try to play around with her and wrath befall u naturally. LOL.
bitch on sista!"

-roll eyes-

8. vanessa - "i like the guy in white. hot. = DD" , ""dao noi" lah.. hahaha direct and easy.. "

oh yes. i won't forget that guy in white. hahahaha. and you! faggot leader of 'dao noi' clan. kns. all the while i'm the one doing the shit!

just....

2007-06-13T02:58:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wake up only waiting to fall asleep
sometimes i tell myself you still care
sometimes i ...

retard.

questions

2007-06-12T01:43:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wonder why do i even care
next to everything i look minimal and that's probably why you've stop noticing me

knock knock

2007-06-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

hello?

hello?

hello?

oh fuck, i'm still alive.

random random: singapore badminton school - SBS. i thought the initial was quite sucky.

here (in your arms)

2007-06-08T01:24:00.000-07:00

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I like,
Where we are,
When we drive,
In your car.
I like,
Where we are,
Here.

Cause our lips,
Can touch.
And our cheeks,
Can brush.
Our lips can touch,
Here.

Where you are the one, the one,
That lies close to me.
Whispers, "Hello,
I miss you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love,
With you suddenly.
Now there's no place else,
I could be, but,
Here in your arms.

I like,
Where you sleep,
When you sleep,
Next to me.
I like,
Where you sleep,
Here.

Our lips,
Can touch.
And our cheeks,
Can brush.
Cause our lips can touch,
Here.

Where you are the one, the one,
That lies close to me.
Whispers, "Hello,
I miss you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love,
With you suddenly.
Now there's no place else,
I could be, but,
Here in your arms.

Our lips can touch.
Our lips can touch,
Here.

You are the one, the one,
That lies close to me.
Whispers, "Hello,
I miss you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love,
With you suddenly.
Now there's no place else,
I could be, but,
Here in your...

You are the one, the one,
That lies close to me.
Whispers, "Hello,
I miss you quite, miss you quite..."
I fell in love, in love,
With you suddenly.
Now theres no place else,
I could be, but,
Here in your arms.

Here in your arms.
Oh, here in your... arms.

VIP card i wouldn't want to have

2007-06-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

Go compare it yourself. If you like Party World VIP card go kill yourself. The card is totally....out of this world. It looks like some Buddhist card or whatever that they carry around to protect themselves. -gives horrified look-

Disclaimer:

I've nothing against Buddhism at all. I'm just disgusted at the way the card is being designed.

psst

2007-06-06T23:48:00.000-07:00

wenD thanks for the dinner and your trampoline! Help me thank your mom and say hi to her too. (:

Super random - suddenly all the 'i should have.." thingy is coming out again. Sometimes it makes me want to strangle people who can't see the importance of education and what they are doing to themselves.

Aiya allthegayshitfuck

random

2007-06-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

A story without an ending is the most excruciating.

Forgot where i heard that from.

hi pretty face.......not!

2007-06-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

A pretty porcelain is just as plain without colors, like you without makeup.

Stop deluding yourself (:

life's a joke

2007-06-02T22:39:00.000-07:00

Seriously its bullshit when people say it's alright to make mistakes. It's like there's no turning back after you do something stupid to ruin your whole future. And it's totally NOT okay/fine even if you moved on. Get real. I'm saying shit again. For the 1837482th time I'm questioning my capability. I guess I'm just not good at doing what i used to be good at - that includes self psyching myself to believe I'm good. Life's a bitch!

Sometimes i can't help wondering how some people can get so lucky; to be hit and killed by a falling tree or branch or twig or bark or leaf or whatever that is. And i think it's karma. I bet the trees are going "Quit sawing my ass you fuckers! Eat that!"

hey you look familiar!

2007-06-01T23:52:00.000-07:00

Bumped into Jacqueline today, which is the best-est thing that happened the entire day. I didn't say that to make you happy girl, be honoured! And i owe you a bottle of cookies and a dim sum date on July. I won't forget that. (:

I guess i don't like things when they are incomplete. These while I've been busy completing things that are left undone. Things like completing the 2911 stars, searching for the key chain nob. re-organizing my desk, practicing my photoshop skills, and maybe picking up piano again.

slowing down

2007-05-29T11:22:00.000-07:00

stop, take a look around you before moving on. you probably realised you've missed out a lot of things.

words and confusion

2007-05-29T00:43:00.000-07:00

Words and actions contradict themselves. I don't know what to believe in. I hate these sleepless nights.

best quote from vanessa

2007-05-27T01:04:00.000-07:00

"I'm quite sick of people asking me when they are not going through it with me like my parents"

i can't help but to agree.

being happy

2007-05-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

I'm happy with my life now, as in truthfully happy. Thanks to all those who has always been there, you know who you are.

Hugs and Kisses,
Claire

reflections

2007-05-25T23:32:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you need to slow down or take a step back to look at the way things are, and decide if that is really what you want. Some things are left better to be ambiguous.

taking the time out

2007-05-23T22:29:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when you get upset, all you need is to hug someone to sleep. It really comforts a lot. Thank you I'm feeling much much better. (=

And I can't imagine I actually survived hanging in JP for 3 - 4 damn hours. Finally I've bought a big piece of jigsaw puzzle, together with a friend, to fix. It's strange how i could not use to find time out to do such a thing though I've always wanted to. Perhaps it's a matter of how willing you are to take time out.

Totally worn out now but I've to clear my room for space.

the whole thing turns out wrong

2007-05-22T13:31:00.000-07:00

smash slam kick punch break scream drink tear

bad things all come in a row don't they?
it didn't get any better.

getting in touch

2007-05-22T11:46:00.000-07:00

Some how or rather I've been waking up wanting to see a message on my phone. What kinda syndrome is that man.

And what's up with SingTel (or my friend's phone rather) the reception is so bad that we can't even receive messages on time. I hate lags, breaks down the communication system and it can get quite annoying ~~at times~~ most of the time. Telecoms companies does the weirdest things ever - like taking turns to be problematic. It gets so irritable to the extend no ones wants to talk about it.

On a random note, i need a job to feed my drinking habit. Give me ANYTHING!

Oh Oh, it looks like my sister's birthday is arriving. Maybe i should get her a huge bottle of liquor which i would be more than happy to help her finish. Don't worry I'm usually not that sinister. It just happens once in a while.

"Actually most of us don't drink nor smoke not because we seriously believe it's harmful. Come on! It's more of a social stigma that's stopping us. And when you give it a try, you start to wonder if it's really a bad thing cause it doesn't seem like anything near it." -- Quoting from what liying said last night. Thinking bout it, it sounds logical and could be any more right.

allthegayshitfuck

2007-05-22T01:06:00.000-07:00

Honestly, you'd never know what's good for me if you don't even know what i want. What's so wrong bout staying out late at night anyway? Go ahead and judge me but don't ever think of imposing you thoughts on me. I'm not that kid that takes whatever you give. I've a mind of my own and far more than that.

A good night ended in a bad way.

Very much appreciated the time spent eating chocolate cake and talking about everything. Though certain things still seem a little ambiguous to me, but still Thank You. I probably hurt myself too much with the flames. But i guess pain is only temporary. Nothing really last anyway.

i just want to say

2007-05-21T11:03:00.000-07:00

SHI YING,
I love You
a whole BIG LOT

(: (:

Can Chinese be taught?

2007-05-20T16:14:00.000-07:00

Sis was making preparations for O level Chinese and she asked me how to read a Chinese character.

Me: "Chinese can be taught??"
Sis: "Of course la, if not how Chinese teachers teach?"
Me: "Precisely, they never teach so i never learn"

"i think you are addicted to firing your boss huh"

2007-05-20T14:45:00.000-07:00

Perhaps the side effect of getting to drunk for your own good. Staying sober isn't a necessarily a good thing either.

Finally i met the person i wanted to see most - Adeline. Got drunk silly with Liying on Friday night and popped over MOS to find Ade and WQ. Just like i thought, the same old nagging from both of them and listening to Ade yakking away. France sound like a hell lot of fun i wished i had been there. Thank God LiYing stayed over my place which apparently saved me from mom's nagging. But i think i got assaulted by LiYing last night, I woke up with a 9cm (width) by 3cm (height) bruise on my left thigh. More nights like these please! (except the bruise)

on external factors and internal expectations

2007-05-17T00:01:00.000-07:00

I've always enjoyed intellectual conversations with Vanessa. She'll always teach me (as in not literally) how to learn fight myself and not always end up losing.

little things that makes me feel better

2007-05-16T20:00:00.000-07:00

mccanny: i'm short by 0.1 for it. and i'm still feeling hateful
harold: aiya ur cs queen status more valuable den dat 0.1 man

if only that title was an achievement.

always the same case

2007-05-16T19:41:00.000-07:00

Why has it have to be like this? When would everything be right? I'm ~~quite~~ sick of all these suspense and uncertainties. F-ck.

on pretence

2007-05-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

It’s strange how it all seemed like a passing fad. Perhaps one day we’ll sit down together and laugh at our silliness.

giving up the world for nothing

2007-05-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

I’ve been such an idiot.
I could survive anything but not this.
Apparently it never meant to be mine.

————-

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Coldplay

on being jobless

2007-05-08T23:37:00.000-07:00

Being jobless doesn't seems as bad as it seemed to be. Waking up with nothing to look forward isn't a stranger to me considering the fact i survived 6 months like this. Some other times i wished i needn't have to wake up.

My supposedly Spiderman 3 date turned to 200 pounds beauty date. But i guess it didn't really matter cause i wasn't paying much attention to what's on the screen. Should i continue to say why? No. Period.

excuse me

2007-05-08T14:52:00.000-07:00

excuse me that spot is mine.

when it takes longer than usual

2007-05-06T23:35:00.000-07:00

top up service at 7-11 can't top up ez-link card
value add machine can't read my atm card
trying to fetch a cab but some idiot guy must come and try to hit on me

one word, bugs. as irritating as they can get.

today i sounded everyone out. somehow it seems like there is unanimity in the workplace. it's getting exciting to see how things start to unfold.

i'm glad to announce that i've accomplished the level of falling asleep while standing. my eyelid simply refuse to open the entire morning. it's so bad that i had to sneak to the back and catch a nap when my manager and boss are gone. all thanks to sleeping at 4am last night. i probably haven't had such a long talk with someone for such a long time. as usual, being crazy and working on how to piss the management off. found out some shocking stuff, which, amazingly made me confused of my own emotions. it scares me a little, my reaction that is. maybe i'm not normal myself, i just didn't really realised it.

side tracking. sometimes u try so hard to put the pieces back and they decide to start falling apart at a random rate. then you realise that's when you start to hate. you start hating because it was simpler than it was to start loving again.

just like that

2007-05-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

most of the time i say "do i look like i care?" not because i don't care, but because i don't wish to care.

sometimes i'm afraid to tell what's bothering me cause it makes me look like an idiot.

lesbian and whatever

2007-05-06T02:18:00.000-07:00

mccanny : i must learn frm my mom so next time i can defend my child(if any)

scolionophobic : haha. i dont think i'd ever be a parent, so no worries.

mccanny : still early to say. maybe down the road i see u with a dozen kids

scolionophobic : haha. well i guess nothing's certain. but my ex is a girl leh

mccanny : GREAT! NOW WE CAN BE TOGETHER

alcoholic

2007-05-03T23:20:00.000-07:00

c: "stop drinking so much, it's bad for health"
b: "ya ya, the one who's asking me to stop is a alcoholic herself"

just a random conversation

a whole lot better

2007-05-01T23:50:00.000-07:00

I'll leave the shadow behind, completely

And someday you'll be proud of me

Proud that I've made it, by myself

Things will be a whole lot better

Yes, it will be

computer, blog, and conversations

2007-04-30T15:24:00.000-07:00

I used to have 'a lot' of things to do when i'm on my computer. Now days i realised the only use of lappie is to blast music.

Ever since i started work i never fail to hurt myself. I've people asking me: "Are you working or fighting everyday?" My colleagues beg me to be careful. My mom tells me not to work.

Sometimes i try my best to be very careful of every movement i make. But somehow i'd get injured. What amazes me the most is 80% of the time i don't know where the cut comes from.

I think those that retail Handiplast loves me a whole lot now. Cause i stock up a lot of plasters and medication, both at work and at home.

Oh did i mention that recently i've been getting bruises out of no where? Every morning i'll make a new discovery. haa.

I really want to say that i hate hamster cages that come with extensions. If, in future, my child buys one home i'll slap him/her and throw away the damn cage. It's fucking hard to fix and if you're not careful you'll get a cut like mine (left). Worst thing, it's sold at a pretty low price. Arghh!

But sometimes it's fun to fix those cages. Cause it means that you need not entertain customers, and you get to sit at one corner of the shop and just fix the cages at your own pace. Practically wasting as much time as possible. Mondays are the best days to fix cages cause Mondays are equivalent to 'flies smacking day'.

Sometimes it's not so fun to fix the cages cause it can get quite demoralizing. Imagine you're 19 and you get angry because you can't fix a damn cage well. Like insulting my intelligence. Then those stupid kids will stand beside you and watch you fix. Kns.

Left: This is my best cage fixing partner at work.

Everytime i get fed up i just make him finish up fixing the cage. You can see, fixing cages is one of the most retarded things to do in the world.

We look like some mental patients fixing puzzles. Customers will walk by and stand there and watch you fix. Then you must pretend to be very patient while fixing the cage. Retarded.

That reminds me of Wendy suddenly. Maybe i would need a place in IMH soon. Oh btw, have you thrown a stone at one of the mental patient yet? lol

Talking about mental patients... shrugs. I don't know if i should use the word mental or weird to describe some customers.

Whatever.

Let's talk about luck. Some times lady luck seems to play favoritism. For instance, one of my colleague always strikes lottery. Then another will always miss the chance of striking lottery whenever he stops buying the number always bought over the past 20yrs. I mean WTF?!

But whatever it is, i'm happy whenever my colleague strike lottery. Cause that means free meal. Haha. Like seriously out of 6 working days, 3 days of my meal are paid for. They would either call for delivery or buy for me. Muhahaha

Anyway, recently my luck is going downhill man. Damn unlucky. All the asshole customers must come and pick on me. To the extend i feel like boxing on of them. What can be worst when idiots come stepping on your tail on the WRONG day? *screams in horror*

Left: My supervisor, the one who always strike lottery

He treasures his 4D ticket more than he treasure his $50 note. Seriously don't understand why he always win lottery. Some people are so lucky. Whereas some have to earn their keep.

isolation

2007-04-20T07:58:00.001-07:00

sometimes it feels as if i'm working in India. So hard to meet up with the people i used to hang out with. But luckily they still text messages to me or drop me a call. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~

just leave

2007-04-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

they came back to me last night. i swear to god all of them. it was scary, as though i had to relived those moments again. this whole episode were things that i wished i never knew of nor went through. and it had to all come back again. i woke up. took a deep breath, and tried getting back to sleep.

i lost count of the number of times i yawned today.

sometimes when some things hurt you bad enough, time ain't gonna be of any help.

whatever. bye!

let's walk

2007-04-15T02:35:00.000-07:00

went to satay club for dinner/supper with my colleagues. didn't really ate much though. what pisses me off is the toilet attendant who insisted my colleagues and i had to pay 20 cents whereas all other people can go in for free.

took a long walk with brown after eating. ended up at PSA building.. near cantonment road i guess. sometimes it's nice to take long walks in the middle of the night with your friend. no one, no distractions, talk about random subjects. we should all try new/dumb things when we're young, shouldn't we? Took a cab to furama hotel and sat inside while waiting for my parents. anyway the hotel chair is really comfy.

ah work tml again.

things i'm glad i did today:

1. had a long chat with wan qiu & wenD
2. took a long walk with brown

:)